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"I was born to share my heart."
That simple declaration explains everything about Cyndi Thomson
and her music. At a time when so many young women bolster themselves
with "don't-mess-with-me" sneers and
"hear-me-roar" armor, this 24-year-old singer/songwriter
dares to be vulnerable. With unflinching candor she details all the
hope, fear, doubt and passion swirling inside her.
"I don't want to write ordinary love songs," Cyndi declares.
"I want to write from a different perspective. So I always
question, '"What are we missing? What did we not talk about? What
did I not say about myself?' Her determination to leave no feeling
unexamined makes My World a sort of diary, documenting the inner life
of a young woman as she deals with the vagaries of romance.
Cyndi's
emotional honesty is made all the more compelling by her ability to
see and understand her feelings so clearly. No self-delusions or
defense mechanisms interfere with her songs. "Like her or hate
her, she's right there," says her high school chorus teacher.
"It's so cool." Tommy Lee James, her co-writer and
co-producer with Paul Worley, of My World says, "She has a
presence and maturity about her. As a songwriter, she always tells the
truth and refuses to fall back on a cliche." Cyndi herself
realizes that her clarity is unusual for someone her age. "A lot
of people tell me that I have an old soul," she says with a
smile. "I have an ability to talk about these things."
And so on a song like "I'll Be Seeing You," the listener
gets swept up in a couple's goodbye ritual ("I'll be seeing you/
Hey don't forget your coat) only to realize midway through the song
that it's a final goodbye. The heartbreak is real, but so is the
acceptance of it. "I Always Liked That Best," looks back on
a past romance with fondness, remembering the good times without
regret or sadness. "If You Could Only See" wishes a loved
one - feeling "down and defeated" could see himself through
her eyes. "What I Really Meant To Say" graphically reenacts
the moment when one unexpectedly runs into a not-so-far-past love.
Meaningless chit-chat masks the ache inside, as pride overrules the
desire to admit to missing them.
While many singers and songwriters say that their music is a form of
therapy for themselves, Cyndi hopes her music is a balm for others.
"People dedicate songs to others to tell them something that they
don't know how to say. If I'm used by people to say what they need to
say, then I know I'm doing my job, " she says. "If there's
some hard-hearted person who goes through life and doesn't want to
feel, then heck, I want to break down that wall. You shouldn't live
like that. I want to try to help people through my music."
The last of four sisters, Cyndi recalls an idyllic childhood growing
up in Tifton, Georgia. "We didn't have a lot of money, but it was
a house of many blessings," she says." I loved my sisters.
We didn't fight, and I realize how lucky I am that they are my best
friends." As most little sisters do, Cyndi always wanted to do
what her big sisters did. And two of her siblings sang regularly in
church and at weddings. One day, when she was seven years old, Cyndi
waited for her sisters to leave the house, then snuck off with their
practice tapes. In a room, alone, she attempted to sing along to the
tapes. "I laughed because sometimes I got it right," she
remembers.
As the years went by music became a big part of Cyndi's life. She
followed in her sisters' footsteps and began to sing in church, though
she was terrified during her solos. At 12, she knew she would be a
singer. In junior high she joined band, picking up her sister's
clarinet, just to try something different. "I was last chair and
never moved. But I loved the way that, with all of us learning our
different parts, the end result was this piece of music that we had
taken from a piece of paper and made real."
She began to sing - in chorus, at talent shows, in pageants - wherever
she could get an audience to practice her craft. She won the
prestigious Georgia Music Hall of Fame competition in her senior year.
After graduation, she moved to Atlanta to attend college, sang a few
times at a club called Cowboys and had an epiphany while watching a
baseball game. "My best friend, someone who always encouraged me
and motivated me, was on the field. He was going after his dream by
getting out there and playing, and that made me think, 'what am I
doing to make my dream happen?' My heart told me that the time was now
-- go to Nashville because that's where I have to be to pursue
music."
In Nashville, after a few semesters at Belmont University and a few
years of struggle, small triumphs and more struggle, Cyndi met
songwriter Tommy Lee James. "She had so much focus and
energy," he recalls of their first meeting. "It's weird, but
I agreed to write with her without ever hearing her sing." Cyndi
had written poetry before, but had never written a song. "I was
so scared," Cyndi remembers. "I said 'Lord, if you've ever
heard any prayers in my life hear this - let me write like I've never
written before. Let me write this song. Let them be blown away. Let me
be blown away by what I'm capable of.'" The song they wrote, with
Jennifer Kimball, was put on hold by the Dixie Chicks. The second song
they wrote is "I Always Liked That Best."
All but two of the songs on My World come from Cyndi and Tommy Lee.
With startling honesty they paint a portrait of a young woman learning
to live with her decisions and to create her own life. That young
woman knows her heart, and that gives her unbeatable power.
Because sometimes a woman's strength is her vulnerability.
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